to go home or not?

today was a long day...
woke up at 7, ate breakfast, do my chanting and left for hospital...
platelets... IVIG.....
today, i am not going home

Free Free~

today, i went back to the hospital and my blood count was good!
so i get to eat out at sakae sushi.... hehe...
then i came back home for a nap... next is dinner with family....
this freedom is so nice~

Ward leave~

i was allowed to go home yesterday and today... it feels great to get out of that small room and get some air...
i hope i can do this often...

recipe for peptamen

one night ward leave...

i was able to get my doctor's permission for ward leave and come back the next day...
so, last night, i went to my aunt's house and Gamble... haha
i won 5 matches in the end~!

new~!

downloaded new songs...
today i argued with my dad... he said i chant too little... yes i chant very little, i know... but i'm working on it...
most of the time i only chant 30 mins... i can't really concentrate when i'm in hospital (i really wanna go home)... i dun know what he thinks, but i think he expect me to chant 2 hours....and the maximum i only chant 1 hour....=(
i know it's important, but i am easily influenced by the devilish functions around me...yes, i'm trying hard to ignore it...but still... in the end i will get swayed away by it....haih
sorry dad, i'll work on it...

Imagine (frm glee)

Imagine there's no countries

It isn't hard to do

Nothing to kill or die for

And no religion too

Imagine all the people

Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions

I wonder if you can

No need for greed or hunger

A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people

Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer

But I'm not the only one

I hope someday you'll join us

And the world will live as one

her stupidity

the next day, she did another amazing thing!

see? amazing work there~ anyway i dun care much.... coz it's a waste of energy.....

anyway, i need to update you guys with pics of ME!!!!

Mad at HER!!!

actually i got mood to blog one... then, one fucking nurse name S spoiled my mood....
1st she make the drip leak on my hand...then, she wanna change the pump 3 channel, already know i will need 3 channel, she should prepare 1st mar....like the hokien idiom "ai pang sai ka lai chui kang" (wanna shit only wanna find hole) last minute work...next, she found a pump d... she wanna put up the drip, she put the drip line behind the pump.. then how to insert the tube into the line? didn't use her brain at all...sumore the new staff is there, she is teaching the wrong thing.... i told her it's wrong.. she sumore wanna answer back... in the end like dat lor.....

see the line??!! it's so wrong~!

this is what i meant earlier.......

how much i changed

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

 through nam-myoho-renge-kyo, i've changed alot.

i became stronger, found courage, found strength, became less hot-tempered, became more understanding, appreciate things more...

after these 2 years, i've learned a lot... i found that my life is awesome. i'm not gonna give up...i'm gonna fight all the way until i win... and i am sure i will win.

i appreciate all those who are together with me.

i thank you for sticking around with me all the time, it let me realize who is my true friend which i can depend on no matter what happen.

"a friend in need is a friend indeed"

thanks